The past few weeks have been real tough for me. Well actually the past couple of months have been difficult and full of circustances that I just didn't know how to deal with. I have this reoccuring problem of thinking that I can do everything on my own and have been constantly reminded that I need to rely on God. He's got my back and knows what is best for me. I have been so blessed to have the amount of incredible people in my life that I do in Charlotte. When I first moved here 7 months I thought I'd never be apart of a close community of friends but God has this incredible way of placing people in your life at the time you need them.
I love having deep/ below the surface conversations with people and the past few weeks have been full of just that. I've been almost seeking out how to make these life changing chats happen because my life is absolutely insane and I am having to make decsisions and doing things that I never thought I'd be doing right now. Some of the conversations haven't been easy and a few were even a bit awkward but each have caused me to think about my life and the lives of the people that I love.
I've even had a few revelations come from these chats. One thing I learned is I am a hot mess and a bit crazy but guess what?? So is everyone else! No one has it together but we are all act like it because we are afraid to let down our guard and let others into the craziness of our life. I have to stop acting like I don't need anyone else and stop being afraid to let people love me.
That leads me to my second thing-I need to let people love me. It sounds simple but for some reason I am having a hard time grasping the concept. It's always been a re-occuring theme in my life. I don't love who I am so I can't even fathom how anyone else could love me. I'm not the only one who struggles with this, many girls I know deal with the same issue and it makes me so sad. God created each of us in His own image. We are all fearfully and wonderfully made.We are beautiful and fabulous creations of God and we shouldn't insult God by not loving what He created. I know all of these things but I have a hard time of finding my worth in life. I want to work on it but how do you tangibly work on loving yourself?
Revelation #3-Never settle and don't give up on dreams. I feel like people settle and give up too quickly in life. It saddens me to hear people talk about their dreams and goals that they used to have but they have given up on them because they didn't have the confidence to do it or life got in the way. I have so many things that I want to accomplish in my life and I know that some may not happen but I'm going to do my best to make sure that most of them do. I feel like most people don't reach their full potential. I am surrouned by folks everyday who could do amazing things but because society tells them that they have to have a certain type of job, car and house and they don't end up reaching their potential or doing things they feel the passion to do. Each of us are made for so much more that what we are doing right now in our lives.
Numero 4-life is too short. I know it's a bit cliche but it's so true. Life is entirely too short to be sad all the time. Or to get upset about the little things that don't really matter. Relationships, friendships, jobs and lives in general end too quickly and we need to spend time loving those around us and enjoying the life that God has given us. I'm done being sad or mad about things that I can't change. Life isn't always awesome but we still need to enjoy it and be thankful that God has blessed us with another day. If you are struggling to love life I reccomened coloring, going to the park to swing or randomly bust out in song and dance....these are things that help me :)
There are many more mini revelations I could share but I'll save that for another time.
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